Autism: Surviving and Thriving

Fourteen years ago my youngest 3 boys were diagnosed with autism within a 9 month span. Devastation and grieving followed. Doctors gave me little or no hope, but they didn't know me very well. I refused to believe that my boys were doomed.

My boys are now young men, adults with autism. They are thriving, but every day presents its turmoil and challenges.

My family: husband Mike, sons Ryan 23 yr, Nicholas 21 yr, and Cameron 18 yr. (Ryan and Nick have autism; Cam has recovered from autism.) Our oldest sons, Michael 34 yr and Stuart 25 yr, moved out of the house. Ryan has also moved out, and is still working towards complete independence.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving

I am grateful for many things this year.  My boys are surpassing many goals.  Opportunities are opening for them.  I appreciate my family, for supporting the boys' endeavors in sports, music, school, etc.  I am especially thankful for friends who have asked about my upcoming surgery, so that they can pray for me.

So with the family gathered, food shared, and football games watched today, I realize how many blessing I have received this year.  Truly a Happy Thanksgiving.  I wish my extended family and friends the same--Happy Thanksgiving.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Paying For Therapies: Cash, Government, Insurance

Earlier in the month a friend had a discussion going about government mandated insurance.  She eventually asked me my thoughts.  Here are the questions followed by my response.

So do you agree with your state's law mandating autism coverage? And for families without private insurance, do you think the state (federal, state or local government) should assist families who can't shell out tens of thousands of dollars for their children's autism treatments? I have to imagine that you have mixed feelings about these questions given your political beliefs.
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Sheryl Johnson You're right. I have very mixed feelings. If I die tomorrow, would my kids be able to live independently? Maybe. We are thousands of dollars in debt. We have not let $$ be the reason to not do something for our boys. However, we haven't thrown $$ into every new idea/fad out there. Parents of special needs kids are desperate to find a cure, solution, therapy, anything to move the kids forward.

My kids have private insurance as well as state coverage. The state coverage is minimal, and it can be revoked at any time. That has happened too. Can't rely on it. When a service has been cut, we've paid cash to continue the therapy if it has been successful. The school and state have provided therapies, such as speech and hab, and they have helped my boys tremendously. 

The flip side is having to follow the regulations set by the school and/or state. Children, well, people don't fit into nice rows and columns, ie rules and standards. Special needs children fit even less. Everything needs to be individualized. My kids are a great example of this. Three have autism. The standards cannot be applied equally to them, because the autism symptoms are different in each one. Due to govt regulations, though, the same set of applications has to be administered to each kid--whether or not it is working--which can be a waste of time, hence money. It frustrates the therapist and child.

Then there are meds. Typical medical protocol is to medicate my kids--especially when they were younger. The meds just doped them up. After 2 years, we took them off. I did a ton of research (and I still do). Alternative therapies have proven much more successful. Insurance doesn't cover these. Doctors don't necessarily agree with me, or each other in this realm. As MOM, I have the responsibility to do what is best for my kids. So I am self-employed to stay at home. (husband works full time) We pay cash for what my kids need. If you have known my kids for the last 10-14 years, you can see the progress.

So here's the catch 22 syndrome... yes govt funded services help financially and therapeutically to a point. If my kids were stuck with govt restriction and typical medical protocol over the years, they would not have made any progress and most likely would be on some sort of govt program permanently. Yes, having freedom to research, choose, and pay privately has allowed our kids to thrive and prosper. More than likely, they will not need govt support as they move out of the house.

Tis typical for a family to pay $15,000 annually for a child with autism,. I have 3 kids. Do the math.  Here are the results.  One has totally recovered--no services from school or state. The other 2 have minimal assistance from the state, and one of those has some help from school--the other is moving on to college. We are slowly paying off our debt. Our children are thriving. It is a sacrifice, but that is what parents do. I can also go on and make comparisons of some govt services vs private services... but I think this is long enough. And this is just a touch of what I could write.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Surgery Is Scheduled And Now--

My upcoming surgery is scheduled for early December.  Just in time for the holidays!!  "Tis the most wonderful time of the year," I think--sarcastically.  I could run a ton of songs in a very satirical story, aka sarcastic drone, but I need to be positive.

I have much to do before December.  Thanksgiving is around the corner, but I have already finished the required necessities for that holiday.  December is a different ball game.  I have to make arrangements for regular events as well as items pertaining to the Christmas season.

To start the preparations, Ryan and I went Christmas shopping today.  We went to a bookstore, as requested by Ryan.  Then we walked the local mall. We were searching for an item that we were told was only in a store that I abhor. 

Ryan and I walked in.  Ryan was not comfortable.  We hurried through the store, unable to find the item.  Ryan suggested that we'd get out faster if we asked someone.  Just at that moment, the sales clerk greeted us with a smile.  She was human.  She inquired, "Are you looking for something special?"  Something special in this store was an understatement.

"Yes," I replied.  "I am looking for..."  (Can't spill the beans here.)

Her smile brightened.  "We not only have that, but we have this!"*

*"That" and "this" have been substituted to protect the unknown.

So I bought the "this" and "that".  Since the store had a "buy one get one half off" sale, I asked Ryan if he wanted a shirt with a logo he liked.

"No," he blurted out.

I looked at him with a question.  He gazed back at me, saying, "I have enough things in my room.  I don't need anything."  It was a simple, straightforward answer.  Very typical of teenager with autism.

As we left the store, he smiled.   He was right.  We found the item faster by asking.  I knew why he was smiling--because Mom was the one who didn't want to talk this time.

Funny how we all have our comfort zones.  Funny how life pushes us out of those zones, and we become better for it.  Ryan taught Mom the lesson today.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Going Under The Knife Again

No one likes finding a lump where it doesn't belong.  No one likes hearing the word "tumor" from a doctor.  No one likes a encore performance of a tumor either.  I am no exception.

Within less than three months of having the tumor removed, I noticed the lump had returned.  Like I didn't have enough fun the first go round.  I like roller coasters--real roller coasters.  I'm not much of a fan of emotional roller coasters.  I have enough of those with being a parent of teenage boys with autism.

After having to fight to get my medical records from the doc who performed the first surgery, the idea of searching for a new doc was exhausting.  I procrastinated.  Not a good idea when dealing with a tumor.  However, I just couldn't pursue it.  I was emotionally dead to it.  There was so much already going on with my sons' government agencies battling issues out, that summoning the required positive frame of mind was impossible.

Trying to explain this to people was futile.  They heard "tumor", and they expected me to move on it quickly.  I got lots of advice, to look for this, that, and the other.  "Good to know," I chimed out with a smile.  Nothing like extra pressure.

About the only thing I could do was ask people for referrals of a good surgeon.  Over a few weeks, I gathered several names.  I researched the backgrounds of the docs.  I narrowed the list down to three.  Then the list sat on my desk.

Last week, my mother visited me.  We discussed the doctors, and she wanted to know if I had called.  Unfortunately, I shook my head.  My mom was not impressed.  I tried to explain why, but that wasn't going anywhere.  My mom was a nurse for a gazillion years, and needed medical attention is not to be postponed when she is around.

She dialed the doctor whom she liked, and set the ground work in motion.  Then she handed the phone to me.  I had an appointment within 48 hours.  I met the doctor.  Within a few minutes of meeting him, he called in a second doc.  They spoke and debated my case.  I never had a second opinion so fast.  Before I knew it, I was scheduled for another surgery and understood the procedures and possible scenarios.

My procrastination seemed stupid at this point. I am at peace with the forthcoming procedure.  Still, I'd rather not undergo another surgery.  Risks persist, no matter how good the doc and technology get.

Of course, I also think about how much I have to do to keep up with my sons.  Their needs don't stop.  Even if I can't move.  Phone calls, records, therapies continue.  Urg.  I'm trading one roller coaster for another.  Now I simply wait until I'm healed to ride a real roller coaster.  Yippee!!

Photo credit:http://www.flickr.com/photos/dhedwards/

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Good Lord, Really??


Really?  I look at the sky as I sigh.  This time I say it aloud, "Really?"

Yes, I'm asking the Good Lord if this is what he wants me to face.  Like I can really do this.  I am not trained in this.  I don't know what I am doing.  No map.  No guide.  No manual.

"This" in the last paragraph could be anything.  It could be autism, government agencies, doctors, etc.  So many aspects of autism and teenagers emerge, and I have no idea where to even begin.

I don't like guessing.  I'd rather know what needs to be done and just do it. I like to see end results.  I also don't mind if someone else sees the finished product and gives me a "thumbs up".  I will listen to the "thumbs down", but I prefer the former option.

With autism, there is no finish line.  Tis always a work in progress.  And these are boys, actually, young men now.  Not some project or task.  There are no days off.  Always going.  Always something.

I've told some friends that I really think God has mixed me up with someone who can handle this life I lead.  I'm just waiting for this person to show up.  Anyways, my friends and I laugh.  I think we all can feel that way.  Some aspects of life are simply bigger than we are, and we don't have all the answers.

We just keep pluggin' along.  And I ask the Good Lord for guidance.

photo credit:  Phillip F Chavez, PhD  http://masculinespirituality.com/site/

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Smooth Dude

Nick chillin'
Nicholas has had a very busy semester.  He's taking eight classes.  The norm is seven.  His school day starts at 6am with marching band.  He's taking a full load, which is keeping him busy with homework and band practice.  His weekend doesn't really start until Saturday night because marching competitions occur on Saturdays, sometimes running late til 9 or 10pm.

Today, Nick informed me that he needed some down time.  He pointed out how hard he's been working, citing the proof in his grades and marching band awards.  I agreed.

Then Nick gave me that look.  He had something specific on his mind.

"Can I spend my downtime at Starbucks?" he asked somewhat shyly, yet with a smirk.

"Yep!"  I concurred.  I really couldn't argue.

Nicely played, Nick.